Sunday, June 25, 2006

To Sleep for a chance to dream...

It's been about a month since I made any post on this blog, and for the most part it's because I didn't really have anything to say. My life's been on cruise control for the past couple weeks, and I've been perfectly okay with that. Aside from the usual day to day dilemnas and the "What ifs" that have always plagued me when I can't sleep, things have been normal if not a little boring.

Last night I had a dream. It came in a whisper and was gone before I could I luxuriate in it. I was happy, and beautiful and I felt excited and alive. It was enough to promptly jolt me out of the haze I've been in for the last month and make me anxious about life again. The problem is, that now that I'm awake, that I'm left with the huge task of trying to be that person. And Lord, is it exhausting. When you see a flash of what could be, how can you settle for what is?

You can't. I woke up chilled to the bone by the huge difference between who I am and who the woman in the dream was. So, time to start the improvement process all over again.

Does improving really mean cleaning out my closet?

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol

Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
I said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just look at the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just look at the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just look at the world?